Wednesday, February 01, 2006
dredges
when will I finally be able to cast aside all my habits of glancing back at my rebellious, self-destructive past, and focus completely on my more inspiring present? to not feel mawkish towards my (supposedly) melancholic former self, for to acknowledge the presence of sentiment and allow it to take root is cheap and useless.I do not understand how I could once be caught in a lull and almost immediately perk up the next moment. or am I still doing it now except with less intensity and hence make those mood swings become simultaneously less perceptible? oh come on lux why are you still trying to rationalise the irrational.
lux at 1:23 pm