Sunday, November 20, 2005
dropping a note
Back in Singapore for a week already but I am still a bit exhausted. I suppose 3 months of gradually intensifying mental, physical and emotional exhaustion is not going to be restored and replenished in such a short time, even though he's with me all the way. Time alone is not enough for this, grace is very much needed too.The have-to-dos outnumber the want-to-dos, the shoulds exceed the coulds, and there is still only - one me.
I do not want to whine or complain or grumble because I have been looking eagerly forward to returning home. But being back here does not immediately resolve all bruises.
lux at 1:52 am
Thursday, November 17, 2005
origami
Everytime I shuttle from Singapore to Melbourne and back again, I feel like a slate being wiped clean in the process of transportation, a tabula rasa.The people I encounter upon arriving at my destination, fold me in all kind of ways, that I find myself taking up forms I am unfamiliar with.
Jetlag for nearly 2 days is tiresome; but it is the lag in lifestyle and environment which hangs around a little longer, and crumples me up a lot more.
I am still finding a balance, one that does not have me fold and unfold myself each time I take flight, and land once more.
lux at 12:57 pm